Without preparation

I feel like writing as it is morning and everyone is sleep.

I haven’t thought about what I will write, which is beautiful for me, but probably not for the you, my dear reader.

Son is two months old. I dawned him in these Dragon Quest baby clothes I bought. The slime one with the Dragon Quest I background towel was cute. Trying to get him to dress up as the hero while singing the Dragon Quest theme in hindsight was a little weird. Will wait a few more months before I do that again. Some people dress their babies in sports jerseys. I do this…

We still don’t really have enough free time or mental headspace to make our place consistently clean. I think we need the boy to be a little more independent for that. By independent I mean can be put down for extended periods so that we have time to think and to do.

Whenever I lament these issues persisting, I remind myself that he is a great sleeper at night, getting up for feedings yes, but going right back to sleep, and so we can wait until these other things are good.

Work is getting intense. I’ve taken lots of time off over the last two months, but the amount of work I need to do hasn’t really decreased. I will be working unofficially a little today, and on the weekend to try and get a grasp on things. I am grateful for all the flexibility they gave me. My goal was really to not need to have someone replace me temporarily, as it would have been a massive hassle for everyone involved. Before I did this job they used an agency, and it wasn’t the best experience for anyone.

Assuming my wife’s back gets better, I will be going to Australia in August. In my head, I “ran away” from my home and culture of Canada to Japan at age 21, and whenever I work in a professional Western setting, I always feel I need to do a lot of catchup. I’m super happy to be able to work with the Australia team in my company. If I ever decided to move back to Canada, I think it would be an invaluable experience for finding a job there.

I would love to live in Victoria for a few years. I think I could live in Canada happily, but I would need more money than I need in Japan. In Japan just riding my bike to the supermarket in the morning gives me peace. I don’t think that would be the case in Canada.

Whenever I’m on the internet, I do worry about a stupifying of the world, and wonder if that is hitting the West harder than Japan. Perhaps I’m buying into online hype, and the kids are alright.

Anyways, I should ride my bike to the supermarket now.