It feels weird to have fun with my wife and son in the hospital. (My son is fine, but my wife is not.)
I don’t want to do it.
The proper alternative is to be productive.
The more likely is to waste time on things that are not fun but also aren’t meaningful.
I can stare at my phone without fun or meaning.
That is not a good road to go down.
And so my mission is to support them. To do this I need to make sure I am as physically and mentally fit as possible.
This means allowing myself to have fun.
I still don’t want to though.
Once I have word that everything will be fine, then I will want to have fun. We thought we had it, but something else came up.
We will get there. Just taking longer than expected.
Just talking to myself.